2 Months To Figure Out

I spent 2months trying to figure out what I did wrong.I spent 2 fucking months trying to understand how you could love me one day and say you had absolutely no feelings for me for the next,I spent 2months trying to get over you,thinking this school year I would be okay and if I saw you occasionally I wouldn't care.But fuck that.I'm still not over you and I don't think I ever will be.Because as much as I try to deny it,you were and will always be my first love but you were also my first true heartbreak.And every time I see you I'm filled with rage,anger and sadness.I'm enraged that you don't give me any acknowledgment.You pretend you don't destroyed me like that and don't even care.And finally,I am sad.Sad that I am slowly coming to terms with the fact that you will truly never come back to me.Never like me and never love me like I did.Don't talk to me.All you're gonna do is bring back more memories and worse than memories.